She removes me

Hi,

It is quite sad when u thought someone are strong enough to be with you but they actually didn't. Again and again Allah want me to understand that I should never depend on someone although we knew each other about more or less 12 years.
Apparently now I only have family that will cheer all my long journey.....

Talking about izati, she is a friend that everyone should have. She will do everything for you when you ask. She is strong in both way emotional and physical, she is fun, good listener and also good advisor....all of them are contra with me then maybe below is the best treatment that I should have.

Anyway, I'm stuck here; Unable to do anything to fix all over again... I can't chase anyone that want to leave me behind as I can't afford it. Maybe this is the best to all of us...for worse friend like me, maybe at least this what you should do....

Thanks for everything just wanna you know that I'll will always proud with both of you; Yan and Izati....thanks so much!!!

friends and I am so sorry....

Hi and Assalamualaikum...

As per tittle itself, so i want to talk about friends. As I am growth older till now it had been 28 years; I have meet a lot of people. For me if you meet and getting to know each other, then those relationship is called friend. By me passing 28 years old, I just notify and some sort of acknowledge that I didn't have a lot steady friends. They come and go but each of them give special effect to me.
I have meet betrayer, liar and some time when I am lucky enough, I also meet kind and trusted person. They taught me a lot during the process.

In this course, I meet one lady that I hope I can depend on but she just give up to early. This DMU course is something that I and my other friends think is so intense, so challenging and kind of so hurting.

I did not know how she end up to be here with me when she took some sort of microb thing something during her graduated degree and master. Maybe it was destiny that bring her. Currently, she think that everything was too much and she is depress right now as actually describe me right now.
This thing I am not so sure as I did not see her right now but whenever I see her in her social media life, she manage to DM me something like that.
However, there was a lot of depress post in her posting. So, yeah..I am gonna accept that she is depress right now.

To be honest, I hope she is the one that will accompany me through the journey which is the hoping that I put on Shafira. But again, maybe this is the way that Allah want me to learn putting hope to someone other than Allah will give you nothing. You will get hurt again and again. It was so sad but I think I am done for it. It is not that I am selfish but I am done to be hurting. Thinking too much about how I want to make thing better for my friend just now doesn't make she change her mind to give up. I have a lot above my shoulder already to just make my whole mind think a lot about her when she only think about herself only. She did comparing and asking why when she know all of them will make her become more depress. Anywhere, she already choose it although its hard for me but I think I am done. After all, I hope she will doing better in future. I am so sorry to not be beside you now and it was so good to know you. Thanksssss!!!

I need to go back to my O&G as they always prepare to kill me over and over.