She removes me

Hi,

It is quite sad when u thought someone are strong enough to be with you but they actually didn't. Again and again Allah want me to understand that I should never depend on someone although we knew each other about more or less 12 years.
Apparently now I only have family that will cheer all my long journey.....

Talking about izati, she is a friend that everyone should have. She will do everything for you when you ask. She is strong in both way emotional and physical, she is fun, good listener and also good advisor....all of them are contra with me then maybe below is the best treatment that I should have.

Anyway, I'm stuck here; Unable to do anything to fix all over again... I can't chase anyone that want to leave me behind as I can't afford it. Maybe this is the best to all of us...for worse friend like me, maybe at least this what you should do....

Thanks for everything just wanna you know that I'll will always proud with both of you; Yan and Izati....thanks so much!!!

friends and I am so sorry....

Hi and Assalamualaikum...

As per tittle itself, so i want to talk about friends. As I am growth older till now it had been 28 years; I have meet a lot of people. For me if you meet and getting to know each other, then those relationship is called friend. By me passing 28 years old, I just notify and some sort of acknowledge that I didn't have a lot steady friends. They come and go but each of them give special effect to me.
I have meet betrayer, liar and some time when I am lucky enough, I also meet kind and trusted person. They taught me a lot during the process.

In this course, I meet one lady that I hope I can depend on but she just give up to early. This DMU course is something that I and my other friends think is so intense, so challenging and kind of so hurting.

I did not know how she end up to be here with me when she took some sort of microb thing something during her graduated degree and master. Maybe it was destiny that bring her. Currently, she think that everything was too much and she is depress right now as actually describe me right now.
This thing I am not so sure as I did not see her right now but whenever I see her in her social media life, she manage to DM me something like that.
However, there was a lot of depress post in her posting. So, yeah..I am gonna accept that she is depress right now.

To be honest, I hope she is the one that will accompany me through the journey which is the hoping that I put on Shafira. But again, maybe this is the way that Allah want me to learn putting hope to someone other than Allah will give you nothing. You will get hurt again and again. It was so sad but I think I am done for it. It is not that I am selfish but I am done to be hurting. Thinking too much about how I want to make thing better for my friend just now doesn't make she change her mind to give up. I have a lot above my shoulder already to just make my whole mind think a lot about her when she only think about herself only. She did comparing and asking why when she know all of them will make her become more depress. Anywhere, she already choose it although its hard for me but I think I am done. After all, I hope she will doing better in future. I am so sorry to not be beside you now and it was so good to know you. Thanksssss!!!

I need to go back to my O&G as they always prepare to kill me over and over.

 

Hi, everyone!!!!

Always good to be back.


This post is about what i did to my life, about how i turn my passion to. Stay tune guys!!!hahaha

The pic above is the machine that I meet every single day of my life now. I did not know how and why Allah make me to be here but for me as you already at the place you have now; it is maybe the best that you are capable off.
I started my carrier at the small clinic at Gombak as a radiographer couple month after my undergraduate study. Being young and easy to distract, I met Am and kak siti. Make it short, Kak Siti was the main reason I quit my job and decided to let go the Medical Imaging. It was never my thing actually when the doctor at the clinic want to terminate kak Siti as I realize now that kak Siti that is the one that incapable to do her job properly. A lot of mistake happen from her but the old Bariah always thought it was never being Kak Siti. It was always the doctor. Kind of stupid Bariah when she decided to hear for 1 side only.

Then I jumped to tourism by becoming tour consultant. A lot of thing that the noob Bariah learned there. How to develop, how to stop crying, how to asking for help, how to that, how to this.....Then, Am came to the picture, did a lot of mistake with that. The main mistake was accepted him while I am actually not knew him whole. My and my family life are not rational anymore, too much chaos, too much tears for me. It was a big accident anywhere. At one point, my father decided to bring me to Mecca for the umrah. How great the journey that Allah provided for me. He even allow me to see Kaabah even I betrayed Him.

Came from my Umrah, I join BP then I met a lot sonographer. I see how the potential it is then I started to dream about this. Again, my mother is always the hero of my life. To be honest, I will never know what should I do if I loose her. I cannot loose her, never!!!!
She allow me to make my dream come true. She is the one that say; whatever it is kaklong, as long mak is here; everything will be fine. I'll do anything that necessary.
Oh, My Allah! thanks for allowing this woman to become my mother. Alhamdulillah....

So, that was little bit about how I change my passion and I hope this changes will make me closer to Allah. InsyaAllah....

Last but not least, whatever that we did to our life; never leave your God, family and yourself. Mistake is never harm as its allow you to learn. Ultimately; whatever it was, please forgive yourself....

Fan and Tokte

Hi, everyone!!!!!

Come back again!

This not just a fan...It is from my sister. My only sister. The sister that I though still small (even her size actually bigger than me) but eventually she already work. Finish her undergraduate study in something like communication engineering. ( I am not very sure actually, even she told me 100 times before). But anywhere she is already grown up and become a stronger woman compare than me. 

Oh anyway, she got called by Tokte as she is so 'pelat' when she small. Actually, it was kakde as she is the third of my parents children, but she was incapable to pronounce it, then she was introduced herself as tokte.....Then until now....My only Tokte. 

Give her anything then she will come back to you with all the surprises (a good one, something you can proud of). She is someone that I hope I can be. She is like my mother that I can rely on. She is the one that I need whenever I have a lot of stresses. She make me laugh when I couldn't. She make my tears stop without even wipe it. She make me save and secure when i don't. 

If I die, I am very glad she is my sister. I believe she will always take care of my parent more than I am capable of if I gone. 

Well talking about her like this make me ....yarrrkkkk...hahahha

Eventually she don't know about this blog, otherwise I will never post this in the first place and will only keep this deep down to my heart. Come on, she will become so brag if she happen to read this.

Ok, baiii...need to focus more on my still ongoing O&G....    

Love or family? I know the answer now!!!

Hi everyone!!!!!
Assalamualaikum...

There is a lot of changing in my life now...from a radiographer,  I am a student right now!
A student of sonography...as I want to end my carrier as a sonographer.
Actually I am not sure about that, as I keep develop to not knowing what I want to do in my life.


However as I already here, should focus more to become a sonographer. A lot of expenses, a lot of tears and a lot of sacrifices to make me to be here. I just hope and hardly hope all of them become worthy.

Anyway, I learn a lot thru the process. Found that, except me; I am actually have a family. The very quality family. The family that always support me, the family that actually complete me every single day of my life. Being human I make mistake by always thinking they already left me alone;its never happen somehow. I do not need any Am or Dr Aziz in my life. I already have everything when I have my family. Love doesn't mean love relationship between men and women only; it is huge....

So major of story of my life now: I should appreciate all the love that surrounding me. To own Am and Dr Aziz, I did a lot and I shouldn't regret about that as it was my effort. I mean I want them, so i make effort for that. Like you want eat, you should make effort to cook.
Apparently, they also had make decision to go away from my life.
So why should i cry over and over again when I have family that always say yes to me! It is ridiculous right to be cry. 

I never meet Am after what happen but I did met Dr Aziz for a breakfast. We did not talk about my confession as we more focus on what really happen to our own life. I think everything are going well between us. It is a good thing anyhow especially when the breakfast is on him and I got brownies on that day....hehehehehe   . Friendship is win somehow!!!!!

He just left me as he should!!
This picture seriously show something to me!!

Enough for today as I need to focus back on my O&G.
Thanks and have a good day peeps

Masjid Putra, putrajaya

A great building with a great view!

Hi, I'm here at putrajaya!

Esok I ada mobile mammogram....Ya, again n again...
Oh, since this is actually my first post...Nama I bariah, to be exact is Siti Bariah...I'm a radiographer by profession....
A lot of thing want to share but of course not in this single post...Later OK...
Anyway, back to putrajaya...Love this place...Still in the city but with the peace situation....
The surface look very fine, calm and I hope I can buy property here but I know it's will be long way to go but of course nothing is impossible right....

Putrajaya is prime city...Our PM office, house all here....

Actually I don't know much about this city....Hahahahaha....

Enough talking, I want to focus to my sister...hahahaha

Last but not least.... Goodbye and have a great day ahead peeps...xoxo...